Sweetly Screaming

Dreams

2009-10-06T19:30:00.000-07:00

Lately I've been having very intense dreams. Some that make sense, and yet not at the same time. It's very common in most people...but I can't help but voice mine out.

Just last night I've had the most peculiar dream of siblings, one female and one male. Their ages are insignificant, though I can faintly recall that they are a bit younger than I. Anyways, about these children, both are of the noble blood, both Vampires.

Now that's very common, considering Halloween...

Anyways, instead of befriending these two, I was fearful and weary of their presence. Unlike my own group (who I could only recall as my cousins and friends) who were very quick to warm up to them.

These two dream bodies believed us to be creatures just like them, and were very kind to us...despite how evil they were.

They led us to a church not too far from where we had awakened them (a small little cozy shack, both hiding within small child-like coffins). Within that church, a ritual had begun and the girl had put it upon herself to play the piano for said ritual. The music grew darker and trembled with low and high pitched tones. I was extremely scared and pulled my boyfriend to go with me outside, afraid of the bloodshed that may begin. Out of guilt, I could only stand by the door, saddened that I had left my family (for they chose to sit in the front, whereas I sat in the back). By then they all came out laughing and commenting about how great the "show" was. I felt angry and sad that they were misguided.

We were brought to a candy shop where the boy was buying the most disgusting of treats. Fingers, eyeballs, you know, the works.

I myself bought sour punch straws and a pack of gum...

Well, it would have gone longer...but I woke up. School's such a killer.

Just Ordered My Love

2009-09-25T12:16:00.000-07:00

Yes.
My mom got the money for my laptop that I've been waiting months for.
:]
Now it's only a couple of weeks (hopefully days) till it's finally here.
I got a Dell PC which I customized to my liking.
It's a 14 inch (I wanted a 13 inch) but I knew I needed a bigger screen to draw with and watch dramas and what not. Hopefully it's light enough for me to carry around school. :]
Anyways, it's blue in color...and just oh so pretty.
My biggest concern is the weight. xD I'm a lazy ass, so I only wanted a 13 inch cuz of the lightness.

Everyone's telling me to get a Mac, but really it's too expensive for my taste. Not to mention it's my parent's money, so I don't want to get anything out of the limit.

Besides.
Mac doesn't have MS Paint.

Once I get my laptop, I'm going to;

Go on Gaia
Watch Dramas and Anime
Read Manga
Download Photoshop
Draw on Photoshop, MS Paint, Open Canvas, and Oekaki
Play Luna and other games
Read fanfiction
Draw Draw Draw

Seriously, all I do on my mom's laptop (since it's so slow and everyone uses it) is Facebook and Deviantart. x_x;;;

Dreams

2009-09-23T15:44:00.000-07:00

So I've been having a lot of weird dreams lately.
Well not lately...I've just been remembering them a lot more better nowadays.
I tell my boyfriend my dreams, but no one else and I wonder if I should blog about them.

Once I get another dream, I'll probably post it up...

Don't you ever wonder if your dreams meant something?
To me, they're inspiration.
Sad thing is, I can't remember exact details.

I could only hope to imagine that my dream people will become clearer to me than fuzzy blobs in my memory.

Especially the kidnapped princess.
I could only recall her short white blonde locks and tan skin. Her clothes were finely decorated.

Sadly I can't remember. :[

I want to fall asleep again.
And dream another adventure.

Work's a Bust.

2009-08-13T15:54:00.000-07:00

Finally just got back from work.
I'm so tired, I felt nauseous all day. I think I'm going to take a nap right now.
But before I do;
I'm debating.
Should I take headshot commissions?

I really enjoy this image.

I'm quite pleased with how I colored her.
Not entirely too pleased with the clothes, but her face overall.
I'd post more, but I'm really tired...
Kind of upset with my boyfriend too.

Realization

2009-08-12T21:15:00.000-07:00

I just recently posted.
But I was searching through many other blogs and could not help but notice the artwork many of these bloggers post up.
Their art is so raw, vivid, and lively.
The kind of art I've always dreamed of.
To me, my art was always anime.
But to see such classical pieces of art...
It's almost depressing.
I have only ever known anime, ever since I was a child.
Vintage and modern pieces were always my biggest obsession.
Yet I could do nothing to grasp at it.

I want a style.
I don't want anime.

Is that confusing?

I'm speaking out of my ass, seriously.
I want to feel artwork.
Sleep, drink, eat artwork. I want to have the obsession, I want to feel the thrill it gives artists.
Am I a fake?
I know, artwork is artwork.
But this feeling...It's just different.
It's like, I'm trying to find myself.
I'm rambling. My words are confusing. But it's a feeling I can't grasp entirely.

Fairytale Walkthrough

2009-08-12T20:49:00.000-07:00

I've kinda always wanted to make a fairytale series.
I've loved them as a child for so long, I have so many books with all the same stories.
Maybe soon I'll make one.
Anyways, I found this cute kitty.
I named her "Hime".
She sits in front of my door at 7 PM everyday for me to feed her.

My cat's not very happy about it.